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[ Sun Mar 12 06 @ 09:22pm] [ mood | bored ] ok so its been like uhhh 5 months since ive updated this thing, no one reads it anyhoo, so i decided im going to vent to an online source.. Lets see, where to start, so alot has happend since november. i think.. i dont really remember anything from that far back, so ill talk about as of late. on a positive note, i got a new addition.. my lip peircing.. woot, its fun. planning on gettin another tatt soon.i got a job. my car is still running,(ilovemyomni) im making new friends. Negative note, WARNING SOME MATERIAL IN THIS PORTION MAY BE VIOLENT..BEWARE.. So i have a new boyfriend whom i totally adore. Now, why would i stick him under a negative note.. well.. theres a story ex girlfriend moves away still in love with ex girlfriend starts talking to me asks me out things are great ex girlfriend comes back ....now im going to have to wake up every morning wondering if im still going to have my boyfriend at the end of the day. im sorry but i shouldnt have to do that. stick her and i in the same room... theres no comparission, he loves her.. and as highly as he talks about her, id be leaving the room in tears because i dont add up to her at all.. so would it be selfish of me to be upset? None of my friends down here know the "real" me.. ok, i have head issues, no one cares to hear about them. atleast in altoona i have people that relate to me and that i can talk to and have a good time with..perhaps in york, i am that "social outcast" ive realized a few things about myself... im paranoid i dont like change im not the outspoken person i used to be i dont like being alone i dont always feel like smiling i get upset and dont know why i wear my emotions on my sleeves i look into things to far im difficult i hate rejection and dont take it well i wish i were back home.. thats where i feel safe and wanted... but none the less i keep my head up high and try my hardest to remain happy. 1 broken heart but they have some glue.

so fucking special [ Sun Nov 13 05 @ 08:05pm] [ mood | sore ] hum, well everything is still going ok.. i finally go to hang out with laura from school... i met her man guy thingy and his friend, and then we met up with these 4 other people and we went ghost hunting it was aweeeesssomme. like this wasnt just like casual goofing off ghost hunting, this was real.. but other then that nothing exciting has really happend.. my mom came down for the night and we went food shoppin cuz i was like down to nothing haha college life kinda sucks... you deff. dont get home cooked meals anymore, youre lucky if you get some damn hamberger helper.. and we call that real food haha pretty sad.... i got to see saw 2 last weekend.. its an awesome movie.. 9 days till i get to come home for thanksgiving..woot woot.. cant wait... uh thats it for now... blah... im bored as always... ♥ jo 1 broken heart but they have some glue.

weee [ Thu Nov 03 05 @ 10:53pm] [ mood | giddy ] well today went really fast, i got to sleep in till 8:30ish this morning instead of 6. i had master student this morning at ten, thats pretty much just a blow off class.. i enjoy it though. then i had sketching at 1.. boy do i hate sketching.. i think id like it better if i could actually draw. then i came home and took three heaping bags of trash out seein how im the only one in my apartment that has legs and can walk it down. then i did my homework and then just sat online like normal. now im sittin in bed watchin pirates of the caribbean. they're making a sequel, and mic jaggard is ganna be johnny's dad.. weird that they're even making a second. every one knows that seconds are never better then the first.. but o well.. they have to make a living some how. although saw II looks really good. hum.. welp i think thats about all i have to write about in here... so i think im ganna get going to bed, i have arch. drawing for four hours tomorrow morning yay fun....... ♥ jo but they have some glue.

up up and away [ Wed Nov 02 05 @ 07:22pm] [ mood | content ] well i havent updated this thing in like forever. my last entry i wasnt even leaving for college yet.. well i left and im already a month well into it..Everything is going good. i live most of my classes and im enjoyin living on my own. i thought i was ganna get really home sick, but ive been doing alright. My mom comes down most weekends and stay with me until im allowed to come home. She thinks if she lets me come home that im not going to want to come back down here. So i dont get to go home till Thanksgiving. o well its only 3 weeks away. i havent met anyone down here besides the people in my classes and i dont hang out with any of them. im pretty much a hermit.. i think after xmas break im ganna go get a job or something. just so i have something to do. i dunno i kinda like being alone and lazy..its going really fast though. welp thats all i can think of for now ♥ jo 1 broken heart but they have some glue.

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